Digital Narcotics

The end of the year, the time when everyone tends to look back upon their achievements. I can’t believe has fast time is passing by; I just want to hold on to it all every memory, every moment, every heartache, every indescribable joyous moment.

2009 was a good year, like every other year. (Seriously I don’t think I will ever have a bad year in my eyes, not because I don’t believe bad things are never going to have to me, but because I think I will never feel bad about my life even if the worse do happen) Don’t get me wrong just because it was a good year doesn’t mean it wasn’t a hard year. I made a lot of dumb mistakes costing much stress and financial problems. In fact, I believe I wasted the most money this year, or what I consider “Stupid Tax”. Dumb investment “500 dollar”, Tickets “550 dollar”, losing scholarship “3500 dollar”, learning to take responsibility for your own actions “Priceless”. If there is one thing I learned from 2009 is this: If you fuck up, you just fucked up, no matter how good your intentions was, face it and work toward a better you. Key word there is “work”. If you are messing up, and you don’t want to continue to mess up, there need to be change, there need to be evolution. A concept that for some reason I still haven’t wrapped my head around it, yet. Of course, it wasn’t all bad, I learned a lot in 2009, and manage to have “lucky” breaks here and there. I found an awesome job over the summer, all of my closest cousins are with me in college and I’m having the best time of my life with them, and most of all I’m so lucky to have the love of someone so great.

2010 is going to be a important year for me I believe. It’s a year that will show if I will ever get up and do something about my life.